[ the end ]

i wish i could say good bye
i wish i could say good night

i wish i could say these things without knowing that it's for good.
that it might and will be the last things i say to you for an undecided period of time.
that it will be the last time that i'll say those things to you.
that without a doubt, this is the end, and this will be the way it will stay.

i wish i could say i love you and be able to look for tomorrow.
i wish i wasn't such a fool.
i wish i could've shown you this, and that you could see it.

i wish this was all just a dream.

most of all, i wish this really isn't the end.

more than acquaintances, more than friends, more than lovers, more than anything i've ever known.

here's to looking forward. here's to life. here's to the number 21.

here's to everything that we've had together, shared together, and loved together.

here's to us.

[ murphy's law ]

and yup.

the shit just keeps piling up.

why is this so hard for me? just to get a few simple things right. and as always, things take a turn for the worst.

[ untitled ]

i don't remember the last time i had such a shitty day.

someone please rescue me out of this hell hole.

[ ready, set, go ]

well, i think i'm done shopping for university. big pile of stuff waiting to be packed into waterloo.

laptop
printer
rice cooker
tableware
cases of water and oolong instant noodles
desk lamp and alarm clock
cutlery and kitchenware
bathroom stuff

think i'm good to go?

can't wait to move into my new suite =D

[ dorothy, we ain't in richmond hill anymore ]

first post on my new laptop! yeah yeah! beautiful asus u80v (refer to a few posts back)

so i remember, way back when disaster movies seem to be they hype ( ref. twister, day after tomorrow, armageddon, the core, etc) i told myself. we're in richmond hill. we're too far inland for any of that stuff to happen. tornadoes and hurricanes can't form so far inland. and we're not a coastal city so tidal waves won't be a problem.

and then today happened. sun usually sets at around 8 30. it's 7 right now, and its almost totally dark outside. looking into my backyard everything looks "smoggy" because of the rain. the thunder makes it sound like we're under an air raid. the lightning is lighting up my entire backyard. half an hour ago, the radio told me a tornado touched down a block away. weather forecast shows a storm that's totally red. i'm not sure what that means, but red is never a good colour. rogers wireless is down so my cell phone is next to useless.

never thought this could happen in sunny richmond hill.

guess your hill isn't so humdrum anymore huh myles.

edit: youtube footage of tornado in vaughan, complete with people freaking out haha

[ sweet surprise ]

so simply put, i got to thank everyone for throwing me such an awesome 18th birthday. everything just worked out so well, and i had no idea. well, for the most part.

so this whole time, i had been half-assedly been planning my own birthday party, yknow, the usual stuff. and the plan was hat i would get to go out with shelley for lunch and a movie back at her place. and yes everything went to that plan. it was really nice that i got to spend those few hours of my birthday just between me and my girlfriend. just kind of bugged me that she kept getting phone calls endlessly.

after the movie at her place, we were going to head back to my place for dinner with my family. and there it was. a surprise party? for meeee? i would never have guessed, haha

no it was only near the end that it started slipping. things like me hearing shelley on the phone with michael, a couple of mismailed but innocent emails, and finally the freakout when i ventured to look at messages on her phone. but even as i was walking through my garage door, i was convinced that nothing was going on.

so here i am, two days later, giving an appropriate and sincere thank you for everyone who was a part of this. you guys really have made my 18th birthday a memorable one. and to my awesome girlfriend and my mom for organizing this, and keeping it so well hidden from me. i love all you guys =)

cheers

[ terry didn't know ]

i just found out that the actor singing is matt damon. whaaaaat.

good song, good movie.