fallen to the fire, we're just ashes now. no hopes of a phoenix, no hopes of being reborn. i love you with all my heart. i'm hoping that even as you walk away you'll see that. i don't even care anymore if it means nothing to you, i just hope that you'll see that.

i hope that whoever steals your heart next will treat you well, treat you better than the way i apparently treated you.

i hope we can still be friends.

i also hope that you realize what we had was genuine.

i meant forever when i said it. i guess i didn't show it enough.

i don't have anymore to say.

i love you, i guess this is goodbye no matter how hard it is for me to accept that.

unfortunately though, i guess this really is the end



edit: i'm not going down without a fight.

[ ∫turkey = stuffing ]

happy thanksgiving everybody!

a month into university, and life's been pretty crazy. the weeks are long as hell, i don't even know why. the workload is completely different than what it was in high school, and the people there make you feel so incredibly dumb. in high school, i could at least say i was kind of in the upper tier of students. in university? you're average. everyone's just as smart as you are. and now that the material is getting a little bit more difficult, i would take every advantage i could get..

best part of university? dc++. anywhere else you can download hd movies in 10 minutes? i didn't think so. needless to say i'm going to need another hard drive..

i've been having a bit of a grudge against rogers. like many others, i can't resist the lure of blackberry much longer (it shouldn't have anything to do with them being in waterloo's backyard..). the storm 2 looks absolutely amazing, but rogers in all their glorious fail is probably not going to release it. well, it's a wait and see situation right now i guess.

anyhow, tc off to study for midterms. (yeah right.)

peace.

[ jealousy ]

its hard to put this into words, but simply said, i'm jealous. i'm jealous of all the couples i see everyday, how they get to spend time together so freely. i'm jealous of the lovers sitting on a couch, cuddling, when i can't do the same. i'm jealous of my roommate and his girlfriend, so insanely jealous, that they can basically see each every day, that they can stay over and be together. i'm jealous of all your friends staying with you, that they get to have fun with you, laugh with you. i'm jealous that they can have you when i can't.

[ overthinking ]

i gotta get rid of this stupid insecurity.

do you believe in a thing called love? - the darkness