[ revisals ]

i try to live my life without regrets, to not look back at decisions and ponder on it.

but is this going to be the same thing for the next 4 years?

at the time i didn't think that i'd be so affected by the atmosphere, environment, of a school. because, in the end, i'm there to learn and succeed.

i try to convince myself that that's the truth and ideology i should live my life by. however, i can't help but find myself drawn, attracted to another school that is almost a polar opposite of the institution i am enrolled in.

i am secretly in love with it. but at the same time, i hate that i'm in love with it.

i love how when i'm there for a weekend, it's always so fun. i just seem to be able to connect with the people there so much better than i do here. fun is something that doesn't seem to exist where i am now. i joke sometimes about how my town broods misery. but at the same time, sometimes its true. the atmosphere i find 100 km west of where i am now is near impossible to find here.

and i hate it.

i can have fun here, if i look for it. but i can have so much more fun there, without even trying.

i hate to admit, that i am absolutely in love with the university of western ontario.